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Boo

- If I had the skills of Shakespeare, I would be Poe's ghost. Given my proclivities for the dark and pale strangers who lurk. But seeing as I have no time for talk, I let my pen squawk. Pounding sand f...

By: Obituarius | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 07 Dec 2018

Just A Glimpse

- His picture is among a lot of images I store here on this site. His happy, furry face 'smiling' at me. One ear flipped up the way it often was. He was my Sparky boy. Just a glimpse is enough to make...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 26 Oct 2018

The Little Things

- It's the little things of the job that make everything worth it. All the stress of working in education, all the meetings with the big bosses, the paperwork, the endless staff meetings, professional ...

By: LauraDanielle | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 16 Mar 2018

Friday The 13th

- Friday the 13th?! Other than a series of semi-scary movies (one through five actually terrified me once upon a time) today is just another day. Right? I don’t understand all the hokey “bad luck day” ...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 13 Oct 2017

North Delta

- Remembering a time walking all alone in the Southern rain, and passing by both graveyards and battlefields along with the forests and the fields that stand here under both the moon and the sun’s dark...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 04 Oct 2017

Sunrise, Sunset

- The first sunrise I lived through was in Arkansas. I was born in a small clinic in a small town called Mulberrry. My mother didn't live there. My parents had a rental house in another small town name...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 23 Sep 2017

I Ain't Broke

-  Okay, fine! I will admit it then. Here goes. I am an addict. Are you happy now? No? Well, what else do you want from me? (Heavy sighs, eye rolls, stomping my feet) My story? Why? You think you can f...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 17 Sep 2017

In A Lifetime

- Shadows are falling, and I have been standing here all day, with time seeming to be running away and there is no reason to really be anywhere. It feels like my sense of humanity is slowly going down ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 17 Sep 2017

Waiting for Irma~Still

- ***These are random thoughts I have while waiting for Hurricane Irma. At the time of these writings Irma's projected path shows her coming straight for me! I don't know what to do while I wait so I j...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 10 Sep 2017

Blue Lamp

- Every second is a life time with every minute bringing you closer to God, with nothing seen but red lights which make your body seem to burn. With a minute in the sunshine seems to translate sometime...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 07 Sep 2017

After The Storm

- The show went on. Billy Elliot the Musical had a run of six shows from February 24th through 27th, and March 3rd through 5th. We were sold out for all the performances. It was successful by anyone's ...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 09 Jul 2017

Embrace

- All our eyes have seen all that lives and breathes along with each beloved face written in the stars, and now we should let the day just begin. With all coming face to face as distant thunder can be ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 4| Added: 06 Jul 2017

Exoergic

- There seems to be something in the air, with most knowing it’s right and the lamp is burning low with the air being silent in the darkness held at bay by the lamp’s feeble light on this winter night....

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 19 Jun 2017

Seven Types of Thunder

- Seems I was born in a thunderstorm and been where the demons go, having found solace in that one inch no one can touch deep in my mind where the winds never blow. I am still breathing, and have survi...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 05 Jun 2017

Passchendaele

- Still I go walkin’ after midnight and go walkin’ for miles after the guns have gone silent, and after most of the wounds have healed. Tryin’ to recall those words I could never say when that long dar...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 31 May 2017

Alberta Clipper 3: Fifteen Minute Flame(s)

- Standing here taking in all of what was seen, and wondering if I act accordingly will each minute count for something in all eternity? With conviction seeming to be following all the accusations made...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 28 May 2017

Queen Creek

- Wondering if I have a choice if I stand my ground and if my voice will be heard? Holding on to the lessons hard fought and won in the past, with only you and I standing together in the city streets w...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 13 May 2017

Rolling Thunder Blues

- Sooner or later the time and the day will come that we can’t hide anymore from those things we have done, and sometimes lost is the best place to be and if they think you have no direction doesn’t me...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 03 May 2017

Rogue River Dreams

- Shadows are beginning to fall, and I have been sitting here all day, and it all has me wonderin’ if the faithful be rewarded or will they be passed by and end up in the pitching queues for the gallow...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 04 Apr 2017

Thunder Kiss

- Following these old railroad tracks and hearing thunder rolling out on the horizon, and it sounds like heavy guns that if caught by could tear me apart instead of having me standing here thunderstruc...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 01 Apr 2017

In A Lifetime

- Closing these tired eyes of mine and feeling my mind slip back to the days when I seemed to come up with fire in my eyes when promises were broken, and the seasons passed by like the shadows of cloud...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 31 Mar 2017

Extrema

- All around me are the views of familiar faces that seem to be going nowhere, and has me recalling the familiar places I left behind as tears seem to be a way to fill their glasses as they sit in the ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 28 Mar 2017

Three Stations

- Standing here in the courtyard and leaning against the wall wondering why I have been directed to be here at this moment, and instead I know I should be heading out and keep on keeping on down the li...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 24 Mar 2017

Tangled In Blue

- Sitting here after getting off of a call with an old friend who can be rightly labeled as the person who saved my life roughly thirty-three years ago. As I am still calling in order to touch base and...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 22 Mar 2017

Night Flight

- There are times when it seems I just can’t understand some things that just might be so clear, and yes, I am guilty of being hard on myself just like many others are on themselves. Still, there might...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 17 Mar 2017

Winter Sun

- Sitting here and hoping I can find assurance that my doubts will finally leave with the first step being the one that’s believed in. I don’t know if I am heading down or falling from grace, and feeli...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 08 Mar 2017

Exuviae

- Thunder echoing across these high desert plains, and the smell of rain in the air as my mind races as to what options I should be taking if the storm should head this way and unleash its fury as it b...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 05 Mar 2017

Dark Open Road

- Bless me, Father, for I have sinned, and I am not sure where I should begin, as I ask those questions about the faithful being rewarded and will I miss the final call or warning for having lived this...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 04 Mar 2017

Exuviae

- Thunder echoing across these high desert plains, and the smell of rain in the air as my mind races as to what options I should be taking if the storm should head this way and unleash its fury as it b...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 03 Mar 2017

Renegade

- Having it seem to be that I am caught off guard and not really prepared for the rest, and have the feeling that some prayers never reach the sky and I guess the same can be said about some wounds nev...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 01 Mar 2017

The Show Must Go On

- The final act. Today, on February 24th of 2017, we open another play. It's Billy Elliot the Musical. I have the role of George, and it's the biggest part I've had since I started acting in plays. Th...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 24 Feb 2017

Knife-Edge

- Take just a step cried the sad man, and take a look down into the madness along with the patient queues headed for the gallows as songs can be heard for the hallowed. With only fear breaking the sile...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 22 Feb 2017

Prelude To War

- Having been down through the wild side of life where innocence dies, and where the coffins stay where the judges have lied and had the innocent condemned. Having looked in the mirror and stared at my...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 17 Feb 2017

Extrados

- No matter what you think, you know or find it will never be enough and no matter where or how you hide the Man in the Long Black Coat will be comin’ round. You might be able to shake him of your trai...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 15 Feb 2017

Walkin’ The Streets

- Oh…, All the ladies around the world got something to show you, and all the boys and girls as they wave their hands in the air like they don’t really care as they do their dance and go glidin’ by al...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 09 Feb 2017

West Texas Walkabout

- Finding myself making my way through the darkness and being guided by the sound of a beating heart. There have been so many who have said that I can’t understand, and I have been caught up in either ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 07 Feb 2017

Level With Me

- Sometimes I guess I am selfish, denying what is true. Or could be true. So many things have no definitive answers that I go crazy. But not technically crazy. I have been tested after all. So many tes...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 0| Added: 30 Jan 2017

Twilight Theatre

- Cards are dealt as a form of meditation in which answers are sometimes sought through the sacred geometry and laws of chance. Still there are many met who speak of nothing and wear many faces and ins...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 18 Jan 2017

Völuspá

- Watching the birds flying across the horizon and into the misty glare of the morning sun’s dark light, and no one knows where they are from or asks where they are going. Having me remember that Madm...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 01 Jan 2017

Impressionism And Abstraction

- Angels are the travelers between the stars and moon looking for the perfect moment for when Heaven would descend to Earth. The Christmas story and time begin with some sort of a journey in some fo...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 22 Dec 2016

Raven Cage(s)

- It seems like there is nowhere else to run and at times there is nothing to hold on to, and there being times when it seems as though I need to just standup and let go. As I head on down this back r...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 20 Dec 2016

Exequies

- I did my best when the call came down the line and I was taken up to that platform of surrender, as I closed my eyes and took a breath to clear both my heart and mind. As I found myself looking at t...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 15 Dec 2016

End of a Dirt Road

- I understand that every life must end and with each breath being taken could one day be my last, and I ask those close to me to stay with me and I know there are times when I will never win. Still I...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 14 Dec 2016

Anxiety Girl!

- Someone, somewhere, asked, "What is anxiety to you?" These were my thoughts. To me, a small snapshot of anxiety is... Catastrophising. Conflict. Crisis. Delusion. Doubt. Fear. Insecurity. Overthinkin...

By: sweetangel | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 12 Dec 2016

Eisegesis

- Out here off of the beaten paths in an area unknown to most I can hear the thunder hitting and rolling across the hills and fields as if it were a bell being rung by an ironhand. Feeling at times as...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 05 Dec 2016

Darkfever

- Standing up on a hill or more accurately a rise and looking out to the far horizon under the crimson skies of the setting of the sun. Having me wondering if I should follow the sun and see what path...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 01 Dec 2016

Vérité

- When we finally come to the end of those lives we all have lived will the faithful be rewarded, and will others miss the final warning when it sounds? There are times when it feels as there is nothi...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 30 Nov 2016

Reverie

- I have forever been a dreamer, and so, I admit, I idealise love in a lot of ways. Sure, I've been hurt, although I prefer not to acknowledge the potentialities, it's almost a certainty that lies in u...

By: sweetangel | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 22 Nov 2016

Asleep In The Desert

- I walk along these lonely roads and go where I have been directed by the Tao, and in most cases I am the only one walking down these empty streets. With usually having my shadow walking with me to w...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 19 Nov 2016

Windscribe

- Another day has passed with some carrying the ghosts of the past that hide in the shadows, and in the smoke carried in those wounded eyes. Being like some sort of fatal attraction where one can lose...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 18 Nov 2016

Shadow(s) Of A Dream

- Standing here in the aftermath of the night that has just past and feeling as if I had been in a fight, and feeling as if hungover when I saw the news today. Feeling as if Ralph Peter’s book has com...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 10 Nov 2016

Haloid

- Standing here on the roadside, and catching myself daydreaming about the way things sometimes are, and see the ones all love are the ones that are hurt the most when they should be the ones who should...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 03 Nov 2016

Once More Unto the Breach

- One journey came to an end today. Just a short trip out and away. Getting some time to myself and smelling the desert air. I arrived home after a ten-hour drive from Abilene, Texas.   I do miss the...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 31 Oct 2016

Halloween Hi-jinks and other ramblings.

- Halloween isn't widely celebrated in New Zealand. It's more of an American thing, but I have noticed that now it is slowly starting to catch on over here. The local Plaza now stock Halloween costumes,...

By: LauraDanielle | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 29 Oct 2016

One Last Shot

- At this point in my life it seems as though I have done so many things wrong, and I wonder if I can ever possibly put any of those things right. And I have seen the ones circling in the desert as I ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 25 Oct 2016

Long Winter Night

- Out here on a long and lonely highway as I make my way down the line, and I know there will soon be times when my thoughts will soon be wandering like they always do. And there are the times when I ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 16 Oct 2016

What I Did For Pecs

- In July there were sixteen dance work shops scheduled. I was able to attend fifteen. Actually, none were obligatory for the cast of A Chorus Line. But it was fun to take part in them and be part of it...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 11 Oct 2016

Chimes at Midnight

- It is the sort of a day that doesn’t seem to give a damn, and usually gives up on itself in disgust, with Summer being over and the skies being low and drained of colour. Seeing the dead or dying le...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 09 Oct 2016

Kids say and do the darndest things!

- I work in childcare, a job I love and enjoy very much. No two days are the same and the children definitely keep me on my toes, but I would not change it for the world. I love my job. As you probably ...

By: LauraDanielle | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 05 Oct 2016

Shadows in The Night

- Standing here in the far North and occasionally feeling a hot wind blowing on my shoulder which reminds me I am from a land and a world that’s a lot older than the one here. The breeze feels as if i...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 29 Sep 2016

Twenty-Nine

- Twenty-Nine. I am taking myself to bed on the precipice, but you will technically arrive sometime around four in the morning. Knowing my inevitable battle with sleeplessness I’ll still be awake as you...

By: sweetangel | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 19 Sep 2016

Tender Tendons

- "Where does it hurt?" I haven't had a massage in over a year. Everything hurts. That's what I am thinking laying naked, covered with a sheet, face up, on the massage table. She is massaging my head. ...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 08 Sep 2016

Roaming Home

- I know I have been here before. I could never forget this place where I watched the leaves change to vibrant shades of orange and hues of green. Or maybe the green was in your eyes as I fell asleep an...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 07 Sep 2016

what is it you really need?

- If everyone was able to be free to be themselves, the truly vulnerable; no walls, no masks, no lies, their souls would heal, their bitterness would lessen, their pain of spending years trying to fit s...

By: Finallyatpeace | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 01 Sep 2016

Just Wondering

- I wonder if everyone feels all alone sometimes. I wonder if I'd done less drugs, would my mind be clearer? Would I have more answers and less questions? I wonder if I've completely accepted my past ...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 31 Aug 2016

Winter's War

- What is known by him and them about sacrifice when the lights go out, and when the darkness comes crashing down like an anvil? And then they wonder when some stand up when they launch their attacks,...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 27 Aug 2016

99L

- It seems to be hurricane season again here in south Florida. Right. What does that mean? It means there is a chance of a hurricane sometime this year. I hate to admit it (not really) but I don't follo...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 26 Aug 2016

Shadows of a Dream

- There is a curious paradox that no one can explain, and part of it is why we must die a bit before we grow again? In most cases it isn’t worth tears even if all spin about wearing masks and won’t bo...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 20 Aug 2016

Psycho Search

- It's 3:05pm. I am looking at pictures of the top man made disasters of all time. It is depressing. The pictures, the facts, just Hurt. Morbid. How long have I been looking at this devastation? What ti...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 17 Aug 2016

Take Me Home

- Needing some to take the look of worry off their faces, and realize I am just an ordinary man and not magnificent like I was once thought of by myself and others. Different in the regard, that I have ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 14 Aug 2016

Chasing Shadows

- Out there where the river flows, is where the desert owns all and the time has come to say fair’s fair, and a fact is a fact. The Southwestern Desert lives and breathes like all living things do, an...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 13 Aug 2016

River's Edge

- The hour is quiet and full of potential here just after nightfall, and I can hear what can be called a symphony of keepers out in the distance. Feeling the wind picking up, and feeling cold as if it...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 31 Jul 2016

High Cold Desert

- Sitting here and feeling as if the room has cleared of all the smoke that was in it, and I am more than most know or see as they think of me being both seen and unseen as well as heard and not heard...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 19 Jul 2016

Winds of Winter

- Yes, I understand that every life must end, and as we sit alone knowing that there will be one day that we must go. Wondering who are those that will stay with me and I know that my sins are well pr...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 01 Jul 2016

Texas Desert Highway

- With every breath I breathe there are times when I can see and feel what life has dealt to me, and I find myself looking for a singular touch of heavenly grace and maybe a taste of a divine rush. As...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 13 Jun 2016

Pretty Vacant

- Right. It is true. I have been waiting for you. I have hoped and held on, always humming our song, but I was wrong. At first, I missed your touch and longed for you to be near, even though you are alw...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 04 Jun 2016

Still Night

- I seem to have done it again and found myself back here where I have been so many times before and I know that there is no one else to blame for those actions I have done. And seem to have lost my w...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 03 Jun 2016

North Moor

- Sitting here afraid to lose control and I am being called out on many fronts it seems, and seems I have wasted both breath and time, all while it feels as if I am thinking myself to death. Having be...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 02 Jun 2016

Dream World

- All of this time when I look back there were too many voices and too many lies that were heard and told, and I was chasing a lifetime that would eventually steal my soul as I was losing all control....

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 29 May 2016

Past Is Showing

- There may be an only moment, but there’s very few folks in focus; not the first, not the last, and certainly not the least. As I remembered what the Madman once asked me: “Son, tell me as a friend, ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 0| Added: 19 May 2016

God, I Hope I Get It

- They made the decision. A Chorus Line was going to be the first play, and the first of four musicals, in our coming season at the community theatre. Apparently there had been enough enthusiasm, and en...

By: Survivor | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 13 May 2016

The Riddle

- Making my way down this trail that follows the shoreline as I feel the rain on my face and catch a scent of snow in the air, and I seem to hear the ghostly strains of a violin and cello being played ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 27 Apr 2016

Quiet Gray

- I woke up today and realized, I am just not happy. And yes, I am sappy. Sometimes. Through all the chaos and fire-fight, my hand slipped from yours as I caught sight of the madness that night. I guess...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 26 Apr 2016

Joker's Run

- The smallest battles have left the deepest scars, (and all the scars are on the inside of me), as I stand here seeing the smoke pouring out from an open boxcar door sitting there abandoned on the sidi...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 4.8| Added: 23 Apr 2016

Step By Step

- Arriving at the station after having gotten off of that midnight train, and not really being the same person as I was after having everything lost and still reeling and recovering from the "Thanksgivi...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 22 Apr 2016

Bad Moon Rising

- Having felt and heard something in the air, with both things hitting right about sun down and now trying to figure out exactly what was felt and heard outside, as I sit here now in this darkened theat...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 21 Apr 2016

Cold Mountain

- Smelling the burnt powder in the air from the fireworks that were set off nearby, as I am standing here waiting on the platform at the station and waiting on another midnight train. And knowing there ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 20 Apr 2016

The Third Element

- Five, four, three, two, one, zero; as I hear that almost silent countdown being whispered in my mind, and finding myself standing here as though I had been lost in time. Standing here in the dark ligh...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 18 Apr 2016

Arcadia

- Finding myself once again waiting here out on the platform, standing here waiting upon the arrival of yet another midnight train and feeling that gently blowing breeze and hearing it sigh through the ...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 17 Apr 2016

Dark Arena

- Sixteen years have passed and every second seems like a lifetime, and those years that have passed are like some sort of banner, or pennant flying over the field. A place where it seems there are bo...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 11 Apr 2016

One Last Shot

- Got a message the other day, and got me thinking that seems it’s all I got to try to take me back and possibly make me do something I wouldn’t do. And some things just don’t seem to add up to wha...

By: Shotgun011 | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 09 Apr 2016

Many Shades of Blue

- You have so many shades of blue I never really know what to do When the blues have gotten to you What shade of blue Has today brought you? Is there anything that I can do? Is there anythin...

By: adi_me | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 05 Apr 2016

I Am Sorry

- I lift the pen, it feels leaden in my hand. I curl my fingers around the grip, my words feel heavy and hard to grasp. I heave a sigh and smooth back my raven black hair. How can I write what needs to ...

By: BBaker | Category: Musings | Score: 5| Added: 03 Apr 2016